Well I've had A LOT on my mind these past few days. Life has been feeling a lot more lonely than just the normal loneliness. I think it's TMI if I share the reason I've been so bleh feeling, but let's just say getting the depovera birth control shot was a bad decision. It totally messes up your moods, cycle, and just all around the way you feel day to day. I do not recommend it to anyone. Scott isn't helping, we have ups and downs, and random nights where we fight, and it's all thanks to the computer games he likes to play. Maybe it's just me being ridiculous for caring how long he stays on, but geeze. I just want to feel like I'm not always doing everything by myself. I've already lost all my friends and family due to this move to England. I don't need to loose my husband on top of it to the nerdiest game ever created. What has my life come to? Oh yeah, watching tv, and cleaning, and reading. Day in, day out. During the day it isn't so bad because I can just hop it in the car, take a scenic drive, and walk around little towns all over Suffolk. Yesterday to get out of this house because of frustration, I went to the Ely Tesco, and walked around and found little things that will make me happy temporarily. Fuzzy warm socks, cute flats, yummy things from the bakery and such. That killed about 2 hours time worth, and I was back on the couch doing nothing. Catching up on Dexter season 5, and making a yummy pasta bake for lunch.
I know, I go on and on about how I hate life here. I'm just in one of those moods this past like week practically. So sad, I know. We're all women here so I'm just going to say it. I blame it on the fact that I haven't had a period since the end of August. This shot has taken it away from me, and i'm soooo ready to have it back. Sorry if that's something you don't really like reading. Just need someone to talk to about it lol.
Hopefully life feels a little more fufilled and steady when mrs flow comes back around. But until then, i'll continue to walk my black girl in the mornings, and find things to clean and read during the day.
Today was nice though, got to get out with a couple of girls, and went to McDonald's at the end of the day. I promised Tracy that I would take a picture of the menu to prove it's different. Haha less of a selection :/
Love, Kels.
I just read Wally Lamb's newest book "The hour I first believed". It's a really good combo of historical fiction, modern real-life history, a mystery thrown in and relationships - It's really good. Want me to send it to you? Maybe you should surround yourself with something English though - The Bronte Sisters or someone along those lines?? Let me know. Sorry about WOW - been there, done that :(
ReplyDeleteHe's been getting off when I want him to without fighting about it. We're both being nicer, so far it's better. And sure, send it to me, i'll read it (:
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