Living here, and Betsey Johnson.

This one is solely just the writing today. No pictures to sugar it up and make it interesting. Lately i've been feeling a bit sick, and well to be completely honest... fat. It's a new year, everyone is on their health food, and workout kick. I'd love to be right there with them. I just have no drive to do it. Like today... I told myself to go to a cardio class. Of course I told myself, well you're more in the mood to write so just stay home and do that instead. Plus you need to start running before you jump into a class again. Kickboxing a few weeks ago just down right embarrased me. So in order to start my classes monday, tuesday and thursdays, I need to get my butt used to running again. I used to do pretty well in the running department. But like I said earlier, no drive to do any of this. Once it turns to february and I am only a beautiful 5 months away from being home i'll get more into gear. If not, I need one of you to yell at me and tell me i'm a lazy, fat woman. Please and thank you (:

Also, I really miss my Samantha. I don't expect 80 percent of this world to understand but she is seriously the closest thing I have to a twin sister. She's the best friend you could ask for, and we just have that bond where you know it will last forever. I sound cheesy even trying to put it into words but honestly, my life without her would be completely blah. I'm getting frustrated just knowing I can't possibly explain it even though i'm still trying.

California just needs to fit in my pocket or I need to invent a teleportation device. I need my family, friends, and some warm weather. Inn N Out, Panera, Jamba Juice, and BJ's also. I've also been craving some good church. Church over here is just not inspiring at all, and the music is just awful. Samantha and I would get up early, walk our butt's to Coffee Bean, get our yummy coffee's and walk to church. I need to do this with her as many sundays as I can when I go back home. It's fun, always a good message and leaves you feeling great or inspired at the least, and the music is WAY better than the 5 people who stand on stage here and sing songs from the 1800's with opera like tones coming out of their mouths. So not what i'm used to.

I'm just a ngative person when it comes to being here, no matter how hard I try not to be. It's useless and unpreventable. I will always want to be in America versus here. I'm such a baby, but I don't really care. Some of you may be like BUT YOU'RE IN EUROPE, blah blah blah. SO WHAT?! Plenty of Americans go to Europe to visit, and sure it's grand. But to live here? Just not for me. Maybe it's for you! And that's wonderful, but don't tell me how i'm so lucky to be living YOUR dream. I'm definitely not living mine. If it were up to me, we'd be stationed somewhere in NY, DC, or Southern California and i'd be in school, instead of wasting my time at a bowling alley. School over here is so confusing and expensive. I'm fine with attending junior college and then working my way up to possible scholarships for a good school worth attending. I don't have mommy and daddy to pay for it, and military pay isn't gonna get me through school. Inside i'm stressing out and feeling like i'm wasting my life. I just wish we were in the states so school was possible.

Enough of me pouring my worries and stresses out, I have some exciting news that probably most of you will not like (family). I've decided to get a new tattoo, and the apt is for Monday the 31st. He said it will take about 2 hours and i'm pretty damn nervous but the outcome will be so good. I'm getting betsey johnson wings on my back and in the middle of the wings it's gonna say fly with me. It's from a t-shirt I got when I was in 8th grade. My nana bought it for me for getting all A's and B's. Well anyway, i've always been in love with this, especially as an idea for a tattoo. We all know my love for Betsey, and it also symbolizes being an angel. The fly with me part of it for me, is something along the lines of "Dance while you still have the chance." and pretty much fly for what you want in life, and don't let the noise of the world bring you down. My grandpa died in 2006, and a few days before he died he was telling someone how he wanted to live to 100. He deserved to live to 100, he took care of himself. And out of nowhere for him to die from a heart attack after he was so careful about everything. It just makes me feel like you never know when it's your time. So fly to your dreams. Fly for what you want and believe in because it could end at anytime. It's a beautiful saying and drawing and from now until forever I will always be in love with it. So getting it as a tattoo will be beyond amazing. I know 2 out of 3 of the tattoos I got when I turned 18 were out of impulse, and I just did it to do it. But this one has had many years of thought. And it's finally coming true. So for any of you who think I shouldn't get it as a tattoo, sorry. It's already happening and you can't change my mind. Just love me for me, and not for my tattoos. That's simple enough right? (My family is very against tattoo's so I already know the reaction, hence the reason i'm needing to say this.)

For the life of me, I can't get this picture to go right side up. But this is good enough I suppose.

 

I found a poem I wrote about Betsey Johnson in highschool.  Here it is (:

I love Betsey Johnson and here are the reasons why.
Betsey Johnson is pretty perfect.
Her designs make every penny worth it.
I love everything about her lines.
Every season, Every piece, Every time.
I fell in love with the 08' Prom dresses she made.
I'd swim rivers for her, Oceans and lakes.
People think i'm crazy for her and I am.
I love her necklace on my neck, and her ring on my hand.
She's amazing, and that is that.

I was young and not that good at writing so don't judge me haha (:

That's really all I have to say for now.

Love, Kels.